Since I was a little girl, I remember feeling like what I call an old soul. I’ve always had a certain maturity to me, people would comment about it as well when I was younger. Of course, later though, this feeling grew with years, marriage, kids, just life. I’ve always had the nagging feeling of running out of time, I’m not sure what exactly for though.
I wasn’t sure what I should do, I started looking at my life and realize so many years passed but I had not done much. All I did was work, barely see my baby during the week. Not to mention my once baby was about to start school. I felt like I wanted more to show for myself. So I decided to start finishing some things that were left unfinished in my life. The first thing I started was with going to college.
I enjoyed college and I wanted to learn as much as possible, so I took advantage of all the newly available resources I had around to me. Well, I did too much and at the beginning of my second year and I burn myself out so my grades tanked. I lost my financial aid and some of my ambition for school. I failed at getting an appeal to restart. Soon the goal of finishing school drifted into the back of my mind.
Next, I started reading some inspirational books from my childhood that I still had. Ignited my brain for further Improvement. I started my self-development journey at this point. After a while then push myself to pursue my clothing design and take it more seriously. Now, with two children the pressure was really on.
I was now passing my mid-twenties and there was a sinking feeling that I was trying to start things off ” too late” The feeling was a bit irrational but could best be explained like I thought I would miss out on the action. mainly because there were so many better designers out there. How can I stand a chance at this point? I often felt like the opportunities wood cease to exist or the market was already too saturated and no one would be able to find me among the more well-known. I felt like this about everything I’ve ever started.
This was a self-fulfilling prophecy for years. Part of the reason I never got in some years. The more I read the more I learn myself and slowly came topping. There a few times I was late to the gate and some ways that reinforce this idea. Even to this day while building up what is important to me I have forced myself to work hard through feeling like I will soon miss out because I have started after others.
Beginning my new youtube channel I thought why should I even bother, there are so many successful people out there already. I’m sure it is all been done by now. Who would even care to watch me? What if I run out of ideas? My very successful sister pushed me to start up again, I was shocked but I’m so glad she did. She thought it was worth it for me to start now, that made me feel good that someone that space believed in me. I used that as fuel to get my new channel together, and not only did she watch but others do too!
Recently, with starting this blog I’ve had to overcome the same obstacles. Blogs are everywhere about everything and then some. So naturally, the negative thoughts set in. No one will ever care, don’t put too much effort into it. So you don’t end up wasting your time and energy. I figured it would be and I would enjoy that factor if people have to happen to stumble upon it and enjoy then quit. This was not a game and I’m proud of myself for continuing and I am still enjoying writing and people are in fact reading. THANK YOU.
The other day while scrolling about Quora And I found the best response to “starting late”.The question if there was a point for newcomers in the possibly oversaturated blogging world. The person answer was basically “Where there more books still published after the Harry Potter series?” I was floored that person had a huge point, not only were booked still being turned out but there were various books like Harry Potter published before, during, as well as after those books had been. The industry continues to flourish. Blogging or anything like it is no different, there is always room for new creators.
There is really no harm in putting yourself out there “late”. “Better late than never”, holds true. If you don’t bother to try you will never know if you could have made it or not. But really who cares if it’s “too late” just start and enjoy doing whatever it is.
What do you think you’re too late for?
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