Alone in a room full of people. The Lonely Road Of Self Development

 I’m pretty sure we have all heard, “It’s lonely at the top”. I’ve been pretty aware of certain aspects related to business and Law of Attraction since I was in Middle School for a few reasons. My mom was a part of an MLM company some years ago, so she would read many of the books many people read to expand their mind in business and self-development. As a part of my homeschool assignments, she would throw some of those books she found to be helpful. My mother was the first to plant the seeds of business, entrepreneur, and the law of attraction in my mind.


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         I have many memories of my frustration with her and what I would call then, “unrealistic optimism”. She would overhear me fussing with myself about being clumsy and she would say “Stop telling yourself that.” I was confused, it would be things like me walking into something, I was exclaiming an action and hinderance not speaking negatively.

I never understood what she meant that what I was putting out into the “universe” could be causing my problem. Fast forward to my early twenties after the first time I watched the secret. I tried to stop saying anything negative for the most part. Eventually, the novelty faded and I drifted off my self-development path and various negative things came back in my mind.




         Well, here we are getting close to my 30s with two little girls and my husband, for the last nearly three years I’ve been more consistent with my growth and self-development. I’m finally taking building businesses in several areas seriously.


Please understand that I am blessed with supportive family and friends, so that’s not the area of people that I find lonely. It is having a person or a group that you can learn with teach something and share with that is on or near the same level of growth as yourself.


         For the most part, the people that I have around me understand me on some level with the path that I am on and I am so grateful for that. However, there are times I need advice or I am dying to share the new knowledge I’ve gained from the plethora of books I read, the podcasts I listen to and YouTube videos I watch daily.


Unfortunately for me, I am met with confusion or indifference. Sometimes it can be the other side of things where I find myself explaining what I mean ( sometimes it’s all over the place trying to get them on the same page as me ) and it starts to become draining. That phrase “You can’t pour from an empty cup”, comes to mind.






There are really only two people that know and really understand me and what I’m going through they fill my cup when I interact with them and I love it. We are all on different parts of a similar self-development path where we are able to grow and learn together. We share ideas express different interpretations of the same subjects. with all that being said they are busy building their empires as well, so our encounters are limited. I miss them often, but I appreciate any time spent talking to them or being around them because I feel my soul being recharged.



          I have to be thankful for Facebook groups, where I’ve been able to see more people on their journey similar to mine. I am able to interact and virtually meet new people in that area of interest. I have so much to share with people that are on their journey looking for that information. Which soon I hope I am able to spark interest and inspire others on their journey they are on having a family has me finding various ways to balance things in the best way.


          When I’m stressed out with others negativity or not having someone within reach to learn from, I start coping by remembering that we are all on our journeys at our own time and pace. I’m not able to for anyone on to their Journey before their time. I immerse myself in what I like to refer to as positive noise to drown off the negative. That is a combination of books, podcast, and video/audio.


I must admit this all has been helpful and keeping on the right path. I want to thank you that have joined me on a new outlet as a part of my journey with this blog as well as my podcast. When you are struggling in the same way just remember to find your outlet to release the pressure, something to fill your cup and drown out the negative.


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